Tick tock, tick tock
Incessant noise from the clock
Tock tick, tock tick
All the while that I am sick.
It carries on doesn’t want to stop
When I am ready just to drop.
Reminds me that time marches on
While they figure out what is wrong.
All the while as I lay in my bed
The noise I hear going through my head
Layers upon layer it’s there underneath,
Hear it so loud I clench my teeth.
While there is pain my body quakes,
Blood pumping fast I have the shakes.
Ever changing from the norm,
My life has taken on new form.
So different now from before,
Not knowing what it has in store.
On most days I live in pain,
Thankful for some small gain.
The gratitude when things go right,
When I can sleep through the night.
When I can feel I do not shirk,
And I’m able to do some work.
See my way through the brain fog,
To enable me to walk the dog.
Walk up the road from side to side,
Stagger along with him at my side.
Is she alright or is she drunk?
Wish I could escape from this funk.
Erratic emotions cause alarm,
Losing all my grace and charm.
Will they notice my thoughts are mussed,
Or disregard they are not fussed.
People have fallen by the way,
As I fight through each day.
Some are still there as they should,
They are the ones who are kind and good.
Yes life has changed beyond recognition,
Going forward, time out, this intermission.
For this is not how it will stay for me,
I’m sure it’s only temporary.
Over time I’ll start to get better,
Once again be that go-getter.
I hope that it’s not permanent,
For this is not how my life’s meant.